Natalie

Dear R,

You don't know how much you ever meant to me. I loved you with all my being, we were meant to be together. But you hardly knew me. You made me look like a fool but I still loved you. It was unconditional. Even though I now have someone else in my life who I love so, so much, you will always be there, no matter how hard I try to fight it. I know it sounds stupid, if you read this you would think even less of me. The things people told you were lies. It made me look like some freak. We used to be friends. Then you changed. If I see you in the future, I will not say hello, for the embarrasment and pain that my feeling for you have caused me would tear me up inside all over again.

Happy Valentine's Day...
What started out as a pleasant night turned into a really bad nightmarish situation. My boyfriend came over and gave me a gorgeous bunch of oriental lillies (my fave flower. I gave him a cuddly little dog toy because he said he wanted a dog after his cat died) and he stayed for dinner which was really nice. Then he was like "lets go for a drive!" At this point I noticed there were 3 messages on my phone from my so called friend asking me if i wanted to go see this stupid movie with her. She knew perfectly well what day it was and that I would be with my b/f. Then he checked his phone and she had left a fucking message saying "Valentines Day sucks :(" which totally guilt tripped him into saying "Oh lets go visit her." That was the absolute last thing on my mind, it was meant to be about us tonight, which sounds selfish but honestly...I really don't care. So we get to her house and she's going on about how she was sitting outside her ex boyfriends house for an hour staring at his window and about how lonely she is. So we're having a conversation and every time I try to say something, she interrupts me and says "Sorry, I just want to tell [b/f's name] something." What a fucking bitch, I can't get over her need to get into other people's lives. Thank God she's going away. I am so upset right now. It's the first time that I have really known that I was in love.
Goodnight. I hope you all had a better night than I.

So it's 9:30 on Sunday morning. My boyfriend just messaged me to tell me his cat died. A day after they spent $300 getting tests done. Apparently he had a fight with another cat and the vet had to drain 8mls of pus out of the poor cats neck :-( So anyway apparently he rubbed the wound on something thismorning and burst an artetery. He bled to death on my boyfriends foot. I am so sad for him. I asked him to come over so hopefully he will. Poor guy, he goes through so much shit :-(

You Belong in 1963

1963 If you scored... 1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in! 1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too. 1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all! 1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day. 1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

You Are From Venus

You love all forms of beauty. You love dressing up and anything luxurious. A social butterfly, you're incredibly popular and a great host. You're known for your fairness and affection. And as a frind to all. Careful though! You're desire to please may make you too willing to conform. Be yourself. Focus on what matters to you. You'll be all the more popular for it.

Your New Years Resolution Should Be: Wake up before noon

You've been accused of sleeping your life away And it's a little bit true - you are really into your pillow In fact, it may be years since you've seen a sunrise at the *start* of your day Sleep a little less. Some sunshine would do you good.

So I've started this course a couple of weeks ago in beauty therapy. I am basically doing it because I'm interested in make-up artistry...not the whole waxing people's arse thing :-S
We had a make-up day today. The chick doing mine made me look like a crack whore. It was really really bad. I mean REALLY bad. I was almost sworn off make-up for life. It was such a long day- and hot, the humidity is so bad right now. Most of us here are practically living for winter. On the way home thisafternoon I got a really bad headache which sucks and it's friday night and my boyfriend is going out to see a band which means I can't see him *sigh*
I'm probably just gonna sit by myself and watch TV lol

K well, this is my first post at LJ, so I'm kinda just testing it out and seeing if it works ok.